Since my “spaced-outedness” settled down. I have found I have been able to get out a bit more and do things. I also know that I have about a four-hour window after chemo that I feel ok in so I am making the most of my ‘good times’. I spent yesterday afternoon out with YD yesterday finishing organising her present-giving.
I spent some of Friday doing a bit of Christmas shopping and on Friday night I went out with OH and his workmates to celebrate one of his co-workers 25-year milestone. Most of the people who were there were also long-term employees that I know and who I also get on quite well with them and their spouses. It was at an Indian restaurant so I had to be very careful of the spice level of the food but had little bits of that and filled up with rice and naan. It was a really nice night and I hadn’t planned to bring up my ‘cancer’ as not everyone knew the latest news but a couple of them asked so I told them exactly where I was at. They were all very supportive and made me feel really glad I had gone.
I do find it hard socialising when people may not know what is going on with me and some people say the most inane, and inappropriate things if you do talk about it so I try not to most of the time, but on Friday night it was lovely.
One of the things about Friday night was that because I was able to relax, I was laughing a lot and I had several people comment how much they always remember me by my laugh. That I have a great laugh or giggle. I have also had that comment lately from a lot of other sources. I can’t help thinking that if that is what people remember about me that is a really good thing.
Maybe I should use it as an epitaph