I spent most of last week hobbling around home – not being able to put weight on my right foot properly due to the blisters on the ball of that foot. It made for a lot of enforced rest and I have to say my feelings of fatigue has lifted considerably.
MD drove me to my scan on Tuesday (on her way to work) and I was a picture of sartorial elegance wearing my royal purple ugg ankle boots. I usually wear them as slippers round the house as slippers and don’t wear them out in public but they were my best option for getting on and off my feet on Tuesday. I felt like a ‘patient’ as I shuffled slowly along the corridor. I usually don’t feel that way as no-one can usually tell that there is anything wrong with me. For a ‘larger’ women I move very fast, and even though I know I’ve slowed down since first having treatment for ‘Gertrude’, I still walk faster than most people. As OD told her class of stragglers the other day “My Mum’s on chemo and she walks faster than you” 🙂
After the scan I got a coffee and something to eat – as you aren’t allowed to eat before scan – and then caught the train home – the station is right outside the hospital so very handy. I timed it with OH’s coming home from work so that he could pick me up from the train station.
I managed to get some housework done during the week by doing it in little bursts with resting my feet in between. I finally felt my feet had settled down enough on Friday to venture out to get a blood test and run other errands downtown, so with my comfiest pair of sneakers on, I ventured out. I actually managed to walk from one end of town to the other, slightly more tentatively not striding out like I usually do, and having a long sit down break at the Labtest place waiting for my turn and then on the return journey stopping for a coffee and another sit down. On Saturday I managed to get my most comfortable pair of black flat shoes on so we could get some family portrait shots done.
The main painful blister underneath my second toe ‘popped’ with all that walking so with the pressure off it has become less painful to work on although now a have a small weeping hole at the crease of where my toe meets my foot – yes I know too much information!!! Hopefully this will dry up today – I am staying at home and keeping it uncovered in the hopes that it will, also keeping watch for any signs of infection.
Of course now the usual scanxiety sets in, I get the results at my assessment on Wednesday and am hoping that it shows a dramatic reduction in tumor size so that the oncologists can give me the absolute go-ahead for our trip with YD to Dreamworld – now only two weeks away and that I can make plans for the next semester at uni. I am pretty sure it will show exactly what we want it to but until Wednesday those nervous little ‘what-if’ butterflies are dancing in my stomach.