Somehow a couple of weeks ago when I wrote the last post – thought I had all the time in the world to get organised for Christmas – I am organised mainly although OH took it upon himself to do some of the Christmas grocery shopping without consulting me and I dont have the heart to tell him he bought stuff we didn’t need, that I was thinking of a slightly different menu. I was going to do the Christmas grocery shopping this week having got the christmas gift shopping out of the way.
I cant help but think OHs shopping is indicative of the way the last two Christmas has gone. Christmas 2008 (having been diagnosed and starting treatment in Aug 2008) ended up with me being admitted to the hospital on the 23rd and being allowed out for 4 hours on Christmas day to share Christmas lunch with my family in between intravenous antibiotics. Christmas 2009 I had just started Vinorelbine (navelbine) as a chemo for my recurrence and we were unsure of the side effects so we stocked up in advance just in case I ended up back in hospital again. OH took a very active role both years in the shopping and organising but somehow it has got to the point where I almost feel sidelined this year. I wanted to do the shopping and preparation my way, as this year I go into the Christmas season only on herceptin as maintenance chemo and am feeling much better than 2008/2009, and he has taken it out of my hands. I know I shouldn’t whinge because he is trying to be a thoughtful and caring hubby and I do appreciate it but at the same time I feel like my ideas for this Christmas are redundant. I admit I was doing things at a much slower pace than he was but he is working this week and I am not – I still have a whole week in which to grocery shop.
Its funny but until I started writing this post I didnt realise just how upset about it I was. I just rung OH at work to tell him that. He realises he has probably taken over a little bit more than he needed to this year. We have both resolved to communicate a little more about it next year LOL.
This was written on Monday but not posted until today (Thursday) as I got sidetracked with Christmas preparations