Welcome to 2011!! It feel like I only just got used to it being 2010 and its over! LOL
Christmas was a little tiring with the associated chaos of having YD home for a few days and her suffering the effects of anticipation of a change in her residential services set -up. She has made the decision to move in with young women more her own age, which will be happening in a few days. As much as it was her decision, because of her autistic tendencies it tends to upset her equilibrium more than usual, contemplating the changes this move will bring. She also had to deal with the change at our house of MD being home – I dont think she has quite got her head around that it is not just for Christmas.
MD as well has had issues settling at home after being away for 18 months and quite frankly OH and I are finding it quite a challenge after being empty-nesters for most of this year since OD left. Nothing too horrendous – just having to work out the kinks of all living together again.
Then there is my own emotional state to deal with – I get my latest scan results on the 12th (just before my next herceptin infusion) and while I am fairly sure they will remain clear there is that little voice at the back of my mind going “What if ….What if????” This little voice is loudest when I am trying to get to sleep at night. Hopefully on the 12th I’ll be able to tell it to “Shut Up!!” until the next round of scanxiety hits.
I found out yesterday that another one of my IBC ‘sisters’ Susanna had lost her life – she had been dealing with IBC for 10 years and was a fighter right up til the end. I didnt know her in person but had made friends with her from the IBC mailing list and facebook and we had had little fb chats. I will miss her.
Yesterday was also my 48th birthday. (I was born just before midnight on New Years Eve so each New Year is literally my new year) Originally I was going to lead this post with that fact LOL but decided it was a more fitting end to my post. With all the kids away for the night, OH and I just had a quiet celebration – we went and sat on the beach (Maraetai) and had fish and chips for tea and toasted my birthday and the New Year with a glass of wine. We then went for a walk along the beach before it got dark.
As I was saying to Bro yesterday and OH last night birthdays are more meaningful now. 3 years ago I had thought that reaching my 48th birthday was a foregone conclusion, 2 years ago I didn’t know whether I was even going to make my 47th. So I am more grateful and thoughtful about reaching this birthday than I otherwise would be.
So Happy New Year to everyone and I hope this new year brings everyone joy or at least peace in whatever their lives bring them