‘Dancing in limbo’ is the name of the book I am reading at the moment – subtitle ‘making sense of life after cancer’. In one of the very first chapters it addresses the ‘high’ or the ‘unusual calm ‘ during treatment and the subsequent crash that may follow. I read this book and recognise myself so much in its pages.
Dancing in limbo is also the state of my life at the moment – I am waiting on a CT scan appointment and the subsequent all clear from my oncologists before I can do the Cancer Society ‘moving forward’ course. I am also wanting to book a trip to Christchurch to see MD and take YD with me for her first plane ride but I can’ t make the bookings before I get the appointment for the CT scan. I already know that my follow-up oncologist visit will be the 6th October. My scan is supposed to be sometime in the next couple of weeks but as yet I have no appointment. I was hoping to go to Christchurch between the scan and the followup appointment. The public health system is weird in NZ that my cancer treatment is funded at Auckland Hospital but my CT scan is funded through Middlemore Hospital so my oncologist had to refer me there for my scan
While I was writing this post I decided to take the bull by the horns and ring Middlemore to see if my scan had been scheduled yet. It has been but not until 15th September – you’ve gotta love their interpretation of first week of September LOL which means I can now get on with the bookings for Christchurch Yay!!!
I have been working quite a lot the last couple of weeks just filling in for people while they are away. The repetitive movement of using the lotto terminals is not helping my ‘niggles’ and I am unsure of whether I can return to a more fulltime position there. I am not looking at making any decisions about that til next year. The rest of this year is going to be more about my general health, fitness and well being. I have a couple more sessions with the Cancer Society counsellor planned as part of my mental wellbeing plan.