It’s the little things that are important to me in both positive and negative ways this week.
On the positive side my recovery is going really well but is measured in the little things that I can do.
Little thing #1: I can lift my right arm up enough to get my t-shirts and jerseys on – don’t have to rely on button-up or zip-up tops
little thing #2: each time I do my pink pilates stretch exercises, my right arm gets closer to the floor.
little thing #3: I can cook, clean, and do some of the housework. Now is that a positive or not? LOL
little thing #4: I can drive myself – this is a bigger thing than some of the others as it makes me feel more independent.
little thing #5: I have taken the surgical tape off the scars and yesterday I wore a t-shirt but was braless all day. I find I am really comfortable looking down and not seeing anything there on the right side. My overwhelming feeling when I am looking at it both clothed and unclothed is the relief that the cancer is gone.
I was talking to the mastectomy corsetier who I have an appointment with She told me I was a breast cancer survivor (she herself is a 17 yr survivor) and I realised I can’t quite get my head around calling myself that just yet. I think I will feel more likely to call myself that when I have recovered a bit more.
couple of little negative things –
little thing #6: every so often I overreach myself – for example trying to put something on top of the fridge – and then I realise that I can’t do the same stuff with my right arm that I can with my left.
little thing#7: when I look down at my abdomen without the G-cup boobs above it to balance it, it is looking decidedly chubbier than it used to. Also my fat roll on the right side of my waist is slightly bigger than the left side due to the liposuction she did on the left side to balance the fat rolls beside my boobs. Its funny because nobody else notices except me until I have pointed it out to OH and OD – definitely gives me the impetus to lose weight and tone-up.
little thing #8: I am still getting quite tired easily so if I have a day like today when I have a productive morning and early afternoon – pilates, laundry and doing some errands downtown the exhaustion catches up to me about this time of night.
I am making sure I get up earlier about 8.30 am after a couple of weeks of sleeping until late morning and wasting the days. I’m trying to get up early and go to bed earlier at night.. I have always been a bit of a night owl – my old typical bed time pre-Gertrude was always about midnight and I have been going to bed about that time since surgery then sleeping until midday.
Because I am getting busier. time seems to be zooming past very much faster. Its only 4 weeks until OH and my trip to Australia. Hopefully my recovery is on track and I will be almost back to normal by the time we go.