Cute cut and not so cute cuts
my hair – Saturday morning, thinning
feeling my prickly hair
how they plug me in
Sorry I’ve been too busy since my haircut to do an update. After psyching myself to lose my hair, and my whole family psyching themselves for me to look terrible with virtually no hair, we were all really pleasantly surprised how much we liked my new haircut. Even YD liked it – although she couldnt stop giggling at my haircut. All in all, a very positive response. OH is definitely having the most difficulty adjusting, he’s missing his darling with long sexy curly hair but would rather have me bald and flatchested than not at all. I’ve not felt very self-conscious at all going out in public even without a hat. Although as my hair thins more and falls out more the hats will come in handy. I’ve “only” got ten hats and OH thinks I’ve got enough!!!!!! LOL
Admittedly I did need a few glasses of wine (3) to get up the courage to cut it but even sober I’m quite happy with my hair.
Yesterday I took YD out to Maraetai, we had an early lunch at a cafe,and then walked along the beach. I definitely needed my hat on to keep my head warm in the breeze. In the afternoon OH and I visited my M-i-l with OD and YD. She also got a pleasant surprise when I pulled my hat off and she actually liked the way I looked.
Today I had to be up at the hospital 9am for my portacath operation appointment. Of course that meant lovely motorway rushhour traffic with the obligatory nose to tail crash to jam the works up. Which meant we made certain we left home with plenty of time to get to the hospital. They did an ECG before the operation which showed everything was fine so I hope they don’t keep insisting I need them all the time. I am getting a good idea where everything is at Auckland Hospital, seeing they had to take me down to the cardiac department for the ECG. They have left the external tubes in, as you can see in the picture because my next chemo is on Friday and as the operation site is still going to be a bit tender – they thought it was better to leave the tubes so they won’t have to poke and prod me at all!
I have a small incision site on my chest and another by the jugular vein in my neck – the tube (catheter) was inserted into this vein there then fed under my skin to my chest where they inserted the port (metal reservoir with silicon seal) just under my skin. I was feeling very tired and sore when they sent me home but getting back to feeling normal tonight. It probably looks worse than I am actually feeling now.
I guess I am more looking the typical cancer patient now – hat with little or no hair, surgery tubes, etc, but surprisingly I still feel like myself when I look in the mirror. I am actually even surprising myself how unselfconscious/happy I feel with myself and that has got to be a good thing.
Posted by jaydub26 on September 14, 2008